#53; New Years Resolutions

Another decade and another birthday for me to lead into the new year today. Of course, with the end of the year we find many people discussing their new years resolutions and promises to lead into 2010 and the 12 months it contains. So, what are my New Years’ Resolutions?

Urm… well… I don’t have any.

Bit rubbish I know, but I’m not one for planning out targets for the year with resolutions. There’s no real reason why, I just want to see what the next 12 months brings in my personal life and just hope for the best. I’m going into my final year of uni hoping for the best with my dissertation (which I really need to kick my arse into gear over, annoyingly) but I find myself oddly satisfied and at peace in other areas of life so 2010 will hopefully be a good year.

Sorry to let you all down over my resolutions but I genuinely can’t do any! You get what life gives you and, for me at least, letting life flow by is easier than setting myself plans that I feel the need to achieve. Like I say, it’s just how I work and my philosophy.

Nevertheless, hope every single one of you have a happy new year and try and remember whatever you can of your celebrations tonight! May the next decade bring you much success and happiness!

#52; Can I be 8 years old again, please?

The inevitable 21 arrives later this week. On New Years Eve, I sadly lose all excuses in life and, by number it seems, become an adult. The problem is I do not feel 21 whatsoever! I don’t feel 20! I don’t even feel 16! If I was a lottery number I would be investigated without a doubt because I have no idea what number I would want with my lack of wanting to be 21 already. If only Neverland were real… all I need is Robin Williams to fly into my window and take me to a world with Dustin Hoffman…

All these thoughts of turning 21 made me remember how simpler life was when I was a child and the many awesome things that made my mind tickle in a very nostalgic way. Who remembers wanting that shiny Charizard on the school playground, or finally collecting a whole team of stickers in the Premier League sticker book, or destroying your friends with pogs and many other wonderful, wonderful fads? Ah, to be a child in the 90′s was sheer bliss. Plus CBBC was the bees’ knees…


Goosebumps!!! The amount of times I hid behind a sofa after school…


*shivers* Scariest. Intro. Ever.


Have you ever? Ever felt like this? When strange things happen, when you’re going round the twist!


Is it wrong Beekah Grooov really made me want to visit Newcastle as a child?


I’ll admit it. I rubbed my 50p every single time back in the day and made a wish… and you did too.


Every Saturday morning I’d be sitting there singing this intro. Epic times. SMTV too some weeks. Both excellent

There is just so much though – Arthur the Aardvark, Grange Hill, Power Rangers, Animaniacs, Recess, Zzzap, Re-boot, and on and on and on. I could honest go on all night at some of the epic childrens shows and stuff growing up that I absolutely adored. Even away from kids TV, stuff like Birds of a Feather, or perhaps Big Break, and allsorts that I can stillr emember vividly. The chance to finally play sonic the Hedgehog on the Megadrive, getting a Super Nintendo System and wasting my many hours of childhood on some classic games, and all without a worry in the world except growing up.

Yeah, I’ll go back in time please if I can, life seems much simpler back then. None of this 21 rubbish! :)

EDIT: Just wanted to add the fact that BBC2 was the best thing ever as a child. Simpsons and Robot Wars from 6pm was a godsend. Sometimes we even got a double bill of The Simpsons!

#51; A New Home

Just a quick update to let everyone know that this is where I’ll be carrying on Thoughts of a Trying Atheist here on WordPress rather than Blogger due to the fact that Blogger was driving me mental and, what with Gridwalk Talk, I felt it would be 100x easier to manage both blogs here. So, here we are!! If you’re following an RSS feed or the blog, just remember to change the url to http://toata.wordpress.com and remember to visit!!

Apologies for any inconveniences but it should benefit you just as much as it will me after all the problems I had over at Blogger with spam and comments not working.

#50; A personal retrospective of 2009

First off, a very merry Christmas to all reading and I hope that you’ve had a fantastic few days with all your loved ones in the festive celebrations. My apologies for not being so active in this past month with blog entries on here, it’s been a very hectic combination of being at work with the Christmas food rush and doing university work and the avalanche of assignments I had thrown at me. so with this break of worries and woes I do wish you all the best with your festivities and a happy new year!

2009 has been a remarkable year for myself, and a very special year at that. There have been events that have changed my life without a doubt, and there have been events that have inspired me, moved me and just made me feel much happier about who I am and what my course of action in life is to be. It’s quite odd looking back at the past 12 months and recollecting the memories in a blog format as I do worry that it seems slightly self obsessive to be bringing up a wonderful 12 months for myself, but for me I just wanted to share with you why I’m sad to see the end 2009 going out.

There are a few major events that have occurred this year that have definitely been a huge positive boost; as of writing I’ve found myself part of a relationship with my wonderful girlfriend going on 8 months on the 28th and it’s ridiculous how much it’s improved my self esteem and confidence about life in general. I’m quite a shy person and, in comparison to some friends, I much prefer to keep my personal life ‘personal’ as such the term suggests. At the same time, I could happily scream out the delight and happiness being with Lou this year has made me feel, and there’s a good possibility she’ll be reading this later (*waves*), so I can’t thank her enough for actually finding some sanity in putting up with me, the fact that she’s the most wonderful person to have found in my life and for making things work because it’s been incredible, really incredible. At least that makes me look forward to 2010!

Away from the more personal feelings of life, as a Formula 1 fan it has been an incredible year of emotions and unexpected twists and turns. Coming into 2009 the team I supported found themselves struggles on life support after the pullout of Honda. Yet, by the end of October, they found themselves having a world championship driver and a constructors championship to be proud of. To go from drowning in worry to the sheer elation of victory was quite a turnaround and it’s been more than an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least! As if it’s not obvious now, I do love my Formula 1 and I get into the sport quite dedicatedly. The battle between my two favourite drivers at my favourite team was just sheer madness in controlling all the various emotions as the season went on but it was just amazing to see Brawn doing so well after the past few years of horrid performances from the cars Button and Barrichello were driving. Furthermore, the past 12 months have seen the world of Sidepodcast and it’s wonderful community become a big part of my life and to know there are F1 fans out there as completely mad as myself about the sport and unbelievably funny people at the same time is really fantastic and, going back to Lou, if it wasn’t for her re-introducing me to the wonderful world of Sidepodcast it’s quite staggering how different my year could have been. I also had the fantastic experience of visiting the Goodwood Festival in early July and it absolutely blew me away, as you can see in the link. It was a wonderful few days and a must for all motorsport fans of course. Will I be there in 2010? Oh without a doubt!

In general, 2009 had been an odd year in some ways. There have been a lot of deaths reported in the mainstream media, whether they be in sport, in general showbiz or other areas that the media have brought up over the past 12 months. One of the saddest and biggest losses in 2009, for me at least, was the passing of Sir Bobby Robson. The man was a footballing legend and much loved personality of ‘the beautiful game’ and it would definitely be an agreed statement that part of British football died with the passing of this legend. Other people who have passed away in the last year include Henry Surtees, who was involved a freak accident that ultimately cost his life, Michael Jackson, Heath Ledger and many others, and of course the many brave soldiers and individuals fighting abroad in various countries for us. To everyone affected in 2009 by the deaths in whatever way, I can only offer my condolences.

To move onto a more positive note, there has been much change over the past year. The popularity of the social networking service Twitter has exploded into the big time, with now millions upon millions of users using the service, it has without a doubt become a big feature of people lives over 2009. It made controversial changes at times, it attracted big celebrities names, it became a source of real time news and instant updates when necessary. Every year we seem to have a big fad grow into major popularity and it can be hard to argue that Twitter was 2009’s ‘big thing’. Onto a more personal level, 2009 saw Muse release their fifth studio album in The Resistance, a grand journey of music that for me took Muse to a whole new level with some of the ideas produced on the album such as the Exogenesis Symphony. I’m still undecided if it’s my favourite Muse album; it is brilliant to me but it feels wrong to place it over the sheer genius that is Origin of Symmetry or Absolution! Nevertheless it was new material from the band and a huge year for them, building upon a big album that was much waited for and with such events as the Eurasia treasure hunt it made the build up even more exciting. I know I definitely wasn’t disappointed with the eventual outcome.

Oh, and of course, a pigeon stole my ideas in the summer. Worrying times.

So what else can I say? It’s a shame that 2009 has to end because I’ve had an absolute ball of a time. But I can only look forward to 2010 with much anticipation and hope that it will be as brilliant as the twelve months have been. Of course, 2009 saw the introduction of this very blog as well as the recent creation of my Formula 1 blog over at Gridwalk Talk so I hope you continue to visit over the next 12 months, hope that I can continue to entertain you if that’s the case and that you all have an absolutely wonderful 2010!